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Side note, glad business is getting better, at least our efforts are not wasted (:
I miss the boyfriend )):
He's watchin midnight movies w 3 girls now! How lucky bastard he is. HAHAHA!
 

Its been long since i pen something down here. Not that i was extremely busy or smthg, maybe yes, but rather have been procastinating to really give a thought about certain things.
Today i spent the day pretty much by myself. No work, just doing up Itchyybackside, my online shop stuff, preparing for the new collection launch, cooking myself pasta, tuition and dinner w mom. Thanks t the boyfriend for giving me a day off! (: (:
I actually have quite a number t write about.

University/studies plans
So finally after many weeks and months of different kinds of struggle, it is decided that i will be working for a year, gaining some working experience, saving my ass some moolah, and then further my studies again next year. Reason being, i only have myself to blame for not getting good enough grades to land my sorry ass into a local uni, and now, since my nly choice left is pretty much SIM, i have to save the 24k. Which btw, is impossible even if i work for a year, the most i could only save about 15k which means, i still have to work part time and earn my school fees as i study.
Truthfully i have really disappointed myself. I know i have the capability to do so much better. Maybe this sounds arrogant, but i am def not meant the average student that i am now. My parents have did almost everthg in their means since my childhood, to nurture me and give me a headstart in education. I have been in a good secondary school, and graduated of it as a single digit scorer, but yet i am at such crossroads today. Well, what past is past, as least i knew when and how i fell.
Looking on the brightside, SIM isnt that bad either. But i just hope that after a year of work, i am still grounded, not blinded by fame, money or climbing up the ladder that i will be more motivated to go back to the books, and i had better graduate from SIM w a second upper or better.

Graduation
I am not going to be attending my first graduation ceremony, for reasons being too many. Maybe i just dont find much of a reason to rejoice or to go. TP, holds my best, and worst memory. Maybe if the whole touch team would be there, i would go. Hahahaha.

Hongkong
I am going to Hongkong on 5th May! BUT! Why must the stupid swine flu come now????? Im so afraid we might not be able to go, and by then, the happiest person would be Farij. So im really crossing my fingers and swallowing vitamin pills everyday t make my immunity system stronger.

I actually feel really detached from alot of people. Its like my life just revolves around these things, and people, not that im complaining, i like life as it is right now. Calm, planned, and settled. Just feel old, like a teen who hasnt had a taste of fun, like a teen being forced to grow up and do certain things that onl adults are meant to do. Everybody has a different path to take now, and all of us are in different directions to where life might take us to, just wanna say that friends, i really miss you guys.

I miss the lunches where we bitch, breaks where we slack, study days where we attempt to cram notes, field that we always dominate before, after, during, and even non trng days. I miss the feeling like we can talk about anything in the world and for hours and hours. I miss throwing shampoo and soaps across bathrooms and asking each other not to peek at whilst doing so. I miss the times, do you? ):

I hate growing up, changes, and looking to the future. Hate the getting out of comfort zones, only to fall back and realise that we have to get out of it again.

Just some of the pictures of BALI that i have in my phone. NIC DEAR, please hurry send me the photos! :D thankyou!
Bali was even more awesome than awesome. We really spent our money worthwhile.
Lion Air was not that bad, at least we flew safely.
Albia Villa was amazingly luxury. I was not at all disappointed like how usually glamorous and positive only pictures of website makes you feel. It was exactly what we were promised, if not, even more. (:
JU's cooking was awesome that poh and dearest boyfriend was so strung up on her the whole trip and im sure they still her cooking till now.
Bedrooms were clean and really nice with outdoor showers and bath tub for the two rooms downstairs.
Swimming pool was good, and the boys had a lot of fun the last day doing synchronized swimming and jumps and dives there.
Living room was good, cosy for all us to lepak, and also the tv was like lots of channels to flip from, movies, shows, sports, even rugby.
Service staff were really really attentive! We all felt so welcomed and taken care of.
Even though there were some things that i wish i could change, like spending more time with nicole and the rest, sleeping lesser so we could have more fun, minus the stupid quarrelling w the boy & some, but im still glad it was pure 5 days of pure fun and i hope this will be the best memorable trip the 8 of us had in a long while (:
I'm so gonna miss all of us. I hope, really really hope, we still do stay in contact.
I know friendships grow apart, but i choose to be optimistic on those that are worthy (:

( Only if you are my favourite boy <3 )
 

I was due to have my Virgin Pillion Experience today, at about 5pm, but however, the meeting we are due to get postphoned, so its tmrw morning that i have to get pillioned and i'm actually damn scared and nervous about it! 
I couldnt stop worrying it about it non stop since yesterday and i text-ed raymond (my only bike friend) for helpline and started frantically asking him for tips. HAHA. 
Dear friends and all those we care, please cross your fingers and pray for me that i survive my VIRGIN BIKE EXPERIENCE AS A PILLION, tmrw morning! :S 
On a sidenote, i hope Friday hurry comes cause i'll be working at a event FINALLY! 
Beach Party at Sentosa super exciting and i hope i get to learn alot and of course have alot of fun and see new things. (: (: (: 
But! its work till 3am on Saturday for me, pray i get enough rest before the week starts again! :D :D 
 

I'm officially nineteen and one more year to the big twenties!
But its a brand new year for me, and its a year older, a year more of memorable experiences and lessons gained, and one more year to be grateful to have lived (:
Thanks to all those who remembered and wished me, and the presents bought!
The day before 25th, was spent by having dinner with the loves, Nicole, Ting, Eunice, Zaki & Gaspar.
Had dinner at Wheelock's NYDC and then suddenly while ordering dessert, Nicole told me we had to go somewhere like immediately and my dessert can jolly well wait. So i played along and dang, next they pushed me into a crumpler shop, told me i had 5 mins to pick a bag and there. I had to get over the shock quick cause apparently Nic got them to open the shop for me again as they were doing their closing stuffs already!
I was contemplating between the blue and the purple one, and i selected the purple with yellow one instead. I'm really happy with my choice and i found out that its actually limited edition so yay, i have good taste! haha, thanks to everyone who chipped in!
THANKYOU SO MUCH :D :D

Thanks to: Nic babygirl, Tingting, Eunice Da Sao, Teri TTT, Shimo-mo, Deekinz, Susu, Shirry Shir, Surya Syg, Rubes, Zaki Mohammad, Gaspar Captain, Aizat Mamat, Farij the bitch, Poh fatfat, Sammy, & Irritating Monkey.
& Of course, Kris mama, Viv twinnie, Ray the handsome dragon, Clar bestie, Denise, Sharon, Fireman, & UK guy. ((:
Hope i didn't miss anyone out!

 

Alcohol running in my system still, could have ruined my game on sat where i let my emotions get the better of me again. (What's new?)
Sorry Zaki, I will sleep at 8pm on friday nights from now onwards! 
Please let my game performances pick up again and show how much i can do this. 
Last few WTL games with Pratans/Titanium Pumas already! ): 
Thanks Eun, and T x4, for saving our asses last week, without you two, we probably would have died in the middle of the field with only 4 girls, chasing angmohs like mad dogs. So, love for you two. (: 
& Well done Pratans! One of the best games we played i think, though we still lost. DANGGG. But nvm, 7-4 was close! (:

ANYHOO, I COLOURED MY HAIR. I WILL KILL YOU IF YOU SAY I LOOK LIKE AN AHLIAN, SO PLEASE DONT. THANKS. (: 

Its been long since,
the late night msn conversations happen till wee hours in the morning. (:
I hope, this time my instinct does not fail me.
On a sidenote, SIP is going to start in two days time.
I feel really bad for not going t be home these two days to accompany Mummy for dinner, and i try to make myself fell better thinking that when work starts, il have all the time to accompany her. ): Sorry Mommy love!
I am looking forward to good working environment, good job scope, interesting colleagues and having to not worry so much when i get back home. Its like work and thats it, leave all the related stuff at workplace and come back home to relax and enjoy (:
Of course, to the many dinner dates with lovelies, training nights and saturday games day too.
okay, shall go bathe and meet eunice for movie.
CIAO.
:DD

Being sick, from saturday night till now, has been mentally draining.
Didn't help that there is two project submission and one presentation (which i had to miss) this week.
Tried going to school today though im covered and guess what, i couldn't take more than two hours outside so i bailed and came home to sleep.
The tons of medicine that were forced down my swollen throat is making me feel so weak and dizzy at times.
Tonsilities isnt something to be trifled with and my parents want me to go for surgery and remove them, reason being its too dangerous to not do anything about it. So, i'll see. A minor one though but still has its risks and im not sure about it.
Back to school for like two hours wasnt really the best time ive had.
Sometimes i wonder if ive never stayed on in touch football, what would my life be like? Amongst all the fake smiles and non existent concern and not heart-warming friendships.
Through this episode, ive learnt that my family are the ones who stick with me through it all.
Mom who takes care of me really well, waking up to check my every movement, checking my temperature constantly.
Sis who offers all kinds of food cause i havent been able to eat and taking care of me when everyone had to work.
Sis boyfr who is the man, and carried me to the doctors, & attempted to make me laugh.
& Thankful for the three of you who didnt shun when i vomitted.
If you dont know, i hate vomitting the most, it makes me wanna cry really bad.
I hope tmrw will be a better day and i would stop being so anal about everything i see or hear.

The past few days of the week was supposed to be studying days for my one and only calculus paper, but guessed what, it was filled with sleep, eat, fun, not studying at all instead. I think i slept alot, reason being i keep telling myself that i deserve the rest. HAHA. Only yesterday that me and the groupmates started studying for calculus paper and we all gave up within like hours, and went to play badminton and eat omelette. (: I hope we all do well for the test later on, so we can go enjoy ourselves, have a good dinner and watch made of honour.
After the paper i will have approx 2 weeks left which i intend to make full use of it cause its my last freaking holiday before i graduate and have to step into scary working world. So.... here goes:

- Sat movie outing with family
- Sun doctor, and rest.
- Mon Mel's 19th birthday party at RTC, havent seen her for so long! (:
- Tues Mr J is renting car so we are going for spins and around singapore! :D Training resumes! (:
- Wed onwards, no plans yet, LOVES, rugby girls, Kristal mama, twinnie! whoever, date me! I need to have fun.

I FINALLY GOT MY PLACEMENT! :DDDDD
Ultrex entertainment, events company.
I think i will learn to like my internship.
Partly because, i really love the way the office looks like. Super cosy, with big red sofas and curtains all. (:
So, hopefully all the 6 months there would be awesome when it starts in September.
Even though i will have to work on my birthday! HAHA. yes i thought till there already.
Finally two good things happened today. (:
& I'm learning to just be myself, whats meant to be, will be.
YAYYYYYYYYYYYY. Screams and shouts and jumps around the house.
Damn, still got article review to do.
B.

When was the last time we all laughed genuinely, from the bottom of our hearts?





 





Dinner and shopping day & another random Sunday spent bringing noobie mom to T3 to walk around, have dinner, & pretended to be tourists.

Friendlies w the guys today. Playing w them really make me run alot.
Muscles are aching now, tmrw will be worse.
But overall, i kinda enjoyed it. Hopefully its gonna help me to be "on my toes".
& Pau, please start catching balls.
Goodnighty.

I kinda hate it that now, everyday i come back i have to act like a thief. Sneak into sister's room to on the computer. Using it in the dark spoiling my eyesight, or whats available and typing this in the dark. & whats more the project rush is gonna come. DANG. but i have no choice. so bear with itttttttttt.
I have decided to try for the jurong one, and i cross my fingers i get it cause i really love it! worry about everything else like transportation later! (:
This is going to be the last public entry so friends, add up! (:

If it's meant to be, it will be.
If it's meant to come, it will come.
(:


Friends, i feel like locking this journal up. Can like the friends who matter and are non LJ users like get an account and add me as a friend or smth? Friends like BESTFRIEND IN SHANGHAI, nicole BTT, kristal mama, twin? yes? (:

I was so angry at myself for dreaming about you. No it didnt reflect my thoughts of the day. & Its not gonna happen in reality too.

School has started for about 3 weeks already and well, i am getting used to it. Do you know that right now as i am typing this, the teevee is like on and blasting in the living room. I have this habit when i am alone at home to do such things, on the teevee outside but come into the room to do my things, and listen to the teevee. Time is ticking past fast every second, everything is breathing on people's neck. And lecturers, it would help very much if you stop reminding (i mean, once or twice its enough i get it already), that its the last semester to pull our GPA up. If i have to hear it again, i would have a nervous breakdown and just give up university.

I still have to push myself more, not there yet, not worth a placing yet. Not much time left! ):
On a side note, i hope saturday would be fine and dandy and with smiles (:

Pictures are all over at http://community.webshots.com/user/pausies kays! tpiranhas babies, please go get them there! (: okay suria? ((:

Right person, wrong time? No?